week of lessons

     This week was good at the start but went downhill as far as training goes.  To start it off I ran 3 miles Monday morning!! which is good but then work got in the way the rest of the week and no running. I got blisters on my feet during the run which is due to loose socks and soft feet.  The problem I had later in the week is that at dark they close the park where I run, but, I  think I have come up with a solution.  There is a track that goes around Rice university and is about 3 miles long, and it is litterally a stones throw from the building where I work. So now when ever I get off work M-TH I will change and get my run in there and then drive home or to the gym.
     This week was a week of insight for me, I learned that while it was probably wiser (right now, until I get some moleskin) to lay off of running due to the blisters, it was so easy to let that become an excuse . I learned that I have to start developing knowledge of different areas to train at so if one falls through then I just go to the next one with out missing a work out.  Last and definately the most important realization was that while I talked a good game and worked half assed to achieve my goal of competing in Tri's I did not really believe in myself and that I was going to make it happen.  Yes it is a Major undertaking just to get to the point where I can train hard for the triathlons. 120 pound weight loss minimum!!! But I am over half way there!! and I did that, no surgeon, no tricks, to gimmicks, no pills and no harsh fad diets that I starve on. Not only did I do it but I am having success at it and have dropped these 68 pounds in 7 months and if you figure in the two months of self induced plateau, then I have lossed  68 pounds in 5 months of work and lost 52 inches off my whole body. That is success any way you want to look at it. yes, the work is not done and yes, it is too easy to just say that  that is good enough but it isn't. But, I would have to be plain dumb not to look at those facts and doubt my ability to be successful at getting there. It is time for me to BELIEVE in ME!!!
And I am starting to. It takes a while to change years of not believing you are good enough or strong enough, or smart enough to do something successfully. It does not happen overnight but it will.